“White or wholemeal?” she asked.
For a moment, the question confounded me. My mind jumped to a third option, wholegrain, for that was my preference when eating bread. I hate the dryness of wholemeal, and I’ve relegated white bread to an unsavoury category fit only for children and idiotic, uncultured adults.
I chose white. What does that say about me?
As she bent down to fetch the pre-prepared, neatly packaged curried egg and lettuce sandwich – from which I would remove the curry powder, were such an option available – I cast my eyes across her compact workspace.
As food and beverage attendant on a Tilt Train, space was at a premium. Everything she required to perform her job was within reach, within a few metres, and securely sealed behind an impressive array of doors, cupboards and drawers. Briefly, I admired whichever nameless designer had determined how to fit it all in.
I noticed a sign which read ‘3POC’. This, too, confounded me. An advertisement for 2pac’s long-lost rapper cousin, perhaps? Then I saw more words that helped to decode those four characters.
‘3 points of contact at all times’, the sign demanded. I immediately realised that my points of contact numbered just two. A dangerously low number of points, I thought.
As if on cue, the carriage gave a violent jolt, propelling my upper body forwards. I instinctively raised my hands, so as to avoid falling into this woman’s already space-restricted workspace. The two rings on my fingers simultaneously tapped against the plastic wall. I glanced at her to see if she’d noticed. She hadn’t, but she was returning my way.
“Anything else, darl?” she queried, while she entered the sandwich purchase into her touchscreen console. I looked to my left at the menu, though I already knew what I wanted. I was stalling.
I wanted a sausage roll, inexplicably, but I’ve long harboured the opinion that this choice is perceived to be far less masculine than a meat pie.
I recall my addiction to the sausage roll – the ‘safe option’ – throughout my childhood, even after my older brother had discovered meat pies. I did not want this woman to judge me as anything less than a complete, fully-functioning man, as I had hopefully appeared to her up until this moment.
Throwing caution to the wind, I replied: “A sausage roll, thanks.”
She did not judge my decision; if she did, she hid it well.
The next question concerned the choice of accompanying sauce. Again, there were just two options: tomato or barbecue. This reply required no deliberation at all.
“What kind of a faggot would pick BBQ?” I wondered, as I chose tomato. Even the ordering of her question hinted at this outcome. Tomato in first place, for winners; BBQ dead last, for losers.
The total cost of this 30 second transaction was $8. As I handed over a $20 note and waited for my change, I realised that this woman appeared to have comped me the sauce. This elated me, as every other food outlet in this country charges 20, 30, or even – heaven forbid – 50 cents for the simple pleasure of a sauce to accompany one’s baked good.
This has always struck me as cuntish behaviour of the worst kind, as the concept of eating a sausage roll – or, for the more masculine among us, a meat pie – without sauce is obscene. A freakish anomaly. The very thought turns my stomach, as does the national concept of charging extra for such a base necessity.
I was thankful for her gesture. I took my change, smiled at her, and returned to my seat. Perhaps the gesture came from on high. Perhaps it was a company-wide policy to comp squeeze-on sauce packets. Maybe the Queensland Rail CEO, like me, abhorred the practice of charging for sauce.
This thought thrilled me. A shared interest with the head of QR? Perhaps I could secure an interview with him on this basis alone. Still, upon consuming both items – edible, certainly, though neither snack was memorable beyond the minutes I spent consuming them – I had to know: had she charged me, or not?
With a sense of trepidation, I took out the menu from the seat pocket before me. The sandwich cost $4.50; the sausage roll, $3.50.
This equalled eight dollars. This made me smile.